Today turned out great, for a variety of reasons. bullet style info:
- My workplace was the only one NOT to close down for the snow. But. It ended up being sunny for most of the afternoon. And the roads were completely dry, and I had parking when I got home, yay!
- I decided to go for run #2, post cortisone shots. And, it was awesome. I felt great, my feet were fine (after some warm up), and they’re a little cramped right now, but otherwise fine.
- J might have a line on a new job. It’s still not in graphic design, but a good friend is starting his own branch of a company he’s worked with for a long time. He told J he has a few openings, and if he wanted one, it’s his. The job is 40 hr/wk, 8-5pm (this would literally be the first time since we started living together that we would have the same schedule. That’s 7+ years), and the pay would be way way way more than what he makes now. We need this, so badly.
- I had a mouse with a prolapsed uterus today (not great news). It’s not something I’ve had happen in my colony before, and it was.. interesting. Unfortunately, there was nothing we could do for her. File this under weird but true things I see while working with mice.
- Did I mention my feet feel great???!!!! :-D
- I jumped on the scale after my workout, and it said 202.5. I’ll check in the morning, but that would be fabulous if it stuck.
- My dad is doing awesome after his surgery last week. He is such a trooper, and I love him. I don’t tell him that nearly enough.
I’m off to bed. J is going to drop by this potential new job later this week to get a better idea of what it entails. It won’t further his resume towards a graphics job at all, but god we need the money, and the stability of those hours from 8-5pm. He worked mostly 12-9pm shifts for two years, and it almost broke us. He literally told his pharmacist that he was on the verge of a divorce, and needed earlier hours. It saved our marriage.. I can only imagine how awesome it would be to see him every day, for so much more time. I’m trying to be.. cautiously optimistic.
I had a mouse in my colony at work today that had a prolapsed uterus. Wtf? That was messed up.
I just read an article about Justin Bieber calling a girl at the pool of a hotel he stayed at on tour a ‘beached whale’ (reportedly she was a sz 14) to her face. Among other things. I wish this douchebag would just disappear for a while. He’s not going to have any fans left soon.
I have a lot I want to say, but I don’t know how to say it. I was paging through old blog entries, and my comments on how 188lb was driving me crazy (uh, 15lbs lower than I am now) make me cringe. I realize it’s all about perspective- I had been 174lb the summer before we moved to Baltimore- but still, I’m annoyed with myself.
Deep down, I know I’m not really eating that badly. I’m probably at about 70/30 in health : junk food ratios. I’m not overeating. I’m not exercising as much, which I wasn’t really able to help, whether it was shoulder or feet related. But my shoulder is doing okay, and my feet feel great (except for occasional numb tingles after working out??!), so it’s time to get back in gear. And I’ve been doing so. I did a solid JM workout tonight at home, and I have no idea what will happen tomorrow. they’re predicting death and destruction again (aka 2-4”+ of snow) for tomorrow all day. We’ll see what happens. I’m hoping to make it to cardioboxing.
I’m thinking about disappearing for a while, but honestly I’m not sure I’m capable of that, either. Running has always helped me with losing weight, and I’m hoping it will continue to do so, now that I can physically do it again. Really, I know not much will change until J gets a better job, and the stress of credit card debt and living paycheck to paycheck lifts.
I want a house. I want kids. I want to not worry about money anymore, and to order dinner out without guilt and worry. I miss my old body, the one that didn’t fall apart every two months. The one that didn’t have ENORMOUS boobs (another fitting last weekend. Good god).. and well, they were enormous before, in truth. Can we please just rewind to a few years ago, and start over? Maybe that’s what I’m loooking for, but I know it won’t happen. Sigh. My new goal is to lose enough weight to make having kids a happy and healthy experience for me. I won’t be able to do that at my current weight.. and I’ll take whatever will motivate me at this point.
This isn’t the first time I reblogged this, or the last. This just makes me so happy!
Christmas in Baltimore! Tree is up on a stand so Max doesn’t go nuts. Fits nicely with the snow (rain) theme going on outside right now.
First snow of the season!
I ran last night!!
Guys, I’m so happy. I was finally able to run last night, for the first time since.. August? Maybe July? I’m very conscious of the fact that my cardio endurance isn’t even close to what it was earlier this year, thanks to the plantar fasciitis and pretty much three months of low intensity workouts. I had the cortisone injections 2.5 wks ago, and I started doing light elliptical workouts (without too much of an elevation) last week.
This week I increased the intensity, and then I decided to do an easy run last night. And it didn’t hurt, at all. <—- Let me repeat that. It. Didn’t. Hurt. !!!!!! I did 35 min of 2 min run/ 2 min walk. I’m so happyyyyyy.
J and I were supposed to go to our college for an alumni swim team gathering (his, not mine), but I’ve been feeling miserably sick all this week, and I stayed home. I think I’ll take the day off from working out, and just get some cleaning done instead. I hope this happy glow lasts for a while. :-D
Happy Caturday from Maximus!
Mmmm breakfast. And I couldn’t remember if I posted this cheesecake factory lunch pic from over the weekend. That was from the lunch/ ‘small’ menu.
An update of sorts:
I went to the gym last night, and did an hour on the elliptical. This was the first time since i had my feet injected (two weeks ago already!) that I put in a stronger effort. Normally, I will do HIIT, and have a steep incline, but the last week I’ve been only doing moderate inclines. Last night felt good, and i’m very happy to report that my feet were only minimally sore afterwards! :-D This is what I was hoping for. I put new inserts in my new shoes, so hopefully I’ll be good to go now. I go back to the sports med doc in a few weeks for a follow up.
Eating has been meh this week, mostly due to hormones and massive chocolate cravings. I do feel great, though, since I’ve been getting in workouts every other day for pretty much the past week. I’m still trying to be careful with the feet for a bit, so I’m okay with it for now.
I’ve been thinking about using my fitness pal, since everyone talks about it. I might have mentioned it before, but I used to track calories religiously, and I stopped bc it became obsessive. I have successfully (without any obsessive tendencies) tracked since then, but I stopped once I stopped wearing the GoWearFit band. It may not be a bad idea to start tracking and see how much I’m stuffing in my face again, at least for a while. Something to think about.
J and I hit the gym yesterday, after doing various shopping (groceries and christmas! I’m almost done with Christmas shopping!). I did 20 min on the bike, and 30 on the elliptical. I tried so hard to run a few laps to shake things out, but my legs just weren’t having it. I did lifting on Friday, and those machines that you press with the inside/outside of your legs? Yeah, I hurt from that. A lot. So I gave up with the running, but overall it was great. My feet feel good, although I need different inserts for the new shoes. It was good all around!
Eating this weekend was okay. Not perfect, but I’m maintaining, and that’s okay for the moment.
Thanksgiving dinner was bittersweet last night, but J and I celebrated together, and we’re happy and thankful for that. Life may no be easy right now, but it could be a whole lot worse. I’m so very thankful to have a husband who adores and cares deeply for me, and is my best friend. Combined with all our cats, we have a wonderful little family of our own.
J and I had an in-depth conversation about me last night. My weight loss hopes, possible reasons why I’m not losing/ why I’m gaining, and at the core of it was my body image. 90% of the time, I have relatively positive views about myself and my body. That’s plummeted the last couple of months, with not being able to work out.
I haven’t really gained anything, I was at 204 this morning. I just feel so bleh, and it affects (TMI, sorry) how I feel about sex, too. It’s hard to want to be naked, even around someone who has seen you that way for 11 years, when you feel this way. J is amazing and always, always tells me how beautiful I am, no matter what weight I’m at (did I mention I was lucky to have him??)
After spending the morning feeling lazy, I went to the gym for the first time since I had my foot injections (last Wednesday). I did 30 min on the elliptical. At that point, I started to feel weird numb spots, and I wasn’t sure if it was the new shoes or just my feet, so I spent another 45 min or so lifting. Not a bad day. :)
This is my Fitblr!
Basically why I didn’t work out yesterday.Leg was too much in pain. Because of waiting and NOT TRYING TO KILL MYSELF LIKE OTHER CRAZY PEOPLE BE DOING ALL FOR THE SAKE OF FITTING INTO A SOCITAL MOLD I TOOK A DAY OFF AND NOW I FEEL GREAT AND IS GOING TO KICK ASS TODAY.
This is fantastic! What a gigantic “f*ck you” to all the damaging “fitspo” out there. Respect your body and yourself, and know when enough is enough! <3
whoever did this. I love you forever! these are my thoughts exactly every time I see such a post!
I’ll always reblog posts like this.
The couple that wears obnoxiously bright shoes together, stays together. Happy Thanksgiving and Hanukkah to all my tumblr friends, from J, Max, Remy, Oreo and I!
30 min Jillian workout: complete. Plan for the rest of the evening? Sitting on the couch with J, the cats and maybe some cross stitch, in the most comfy sweatpants, evar. EVAR.